Effects

Effects that drive many agendas, are beautiful outcomes, but most feared at times.

I fear that some effects are long lasting. Good memories are beautiful, yet the most hurtful, for they are of the past. History does have its effects.

Daily reminders doesn't help. I need to be more harsh on myself. I need to tell God more about it. I need to rely on Him more.

I need to set my heart on doing things my heart doesn't wish to do.

How?

Time to tear it apart, again.

I need a box to lock all of it up.

Again.

Ya, I need to be more harsh on myself. *slaps*

Wake up, Zi Cheng, you have been sleeping toooo long. Ya I know you wish to remain in that bed, you love to hug that pillow. Time to change them. So wake up now, will you?

And do something to that noticeboard. Some things need to go into that box. Now.

It does feels eerie to talk to myself. Oh God, pull me out.