Names

Is it perfectly normal for me to say that I have a condition of with the name retaining modality in my cognition? It is becoming increasingly common for people to walk by me and say: "hey, zicheng!" but yet I can only reply with "Hey (erm) hello!"

To some the retaining of names in memory comes naturally, to some this transfer of lexical information (for names are non-words in the first place) from our working memory to long-term store depends on how much the name, and subsequently the person the name is referring to, means to the individual. The more the ability to retrieve the name and modus from the long-term store, the more the name mean to the person.

But I have a condition, as I said. I cannot really transfer names to long term store. It shows when I need at least 4 days to correctly address each new friend I met from my orientation groups, and 1 year to forget 3/4 of the names I came across in my own platoon. Reservist was kind of a learning session for me when some names seems like new ones to me, even though I remember I have seen these people before.

So please pardon me if I cannot remember your name when you say hi to me. I really have a condition which is certified. By me.

That said, nonetheless, for the majority of times, a great sense of guilt hovers over me when I hear the exclamation of my name, which penetrates my thoughts and mind in 90% of the times when I am in my own personal psychological space. Just because I cannot reciprocate with a response where the corresponding name is an essential content to make it satisfactory. With that comes a inadequate substitution of a sense of guilt in my hellos.